Jesus frees lawyer from witchcraft oppression

E did not realise that a follower of Jesus needed to be washed clean and renewed by the Holy Spirit. Instead, she lived with evil spirits from the witchcraft she had dabbled in and suffered from depression and anxiety – until Jesus set her free as she repented and called out to Him for help. Praise God.

(See Chinese versions: 简体中文 > 耶稣使律师从巫术捆缚中得释放 | 繁體中文 > 耶穌使律師從巫術捆縛中得釋放)

I have been suffering from depression and anxiety for over 10 years and worked with different specialists.

Therefore, I thought my inner healing and deliverance prayer would be like a therapy session to deal with unresolved issues and emotional wounds.

I had postpartum depression after having my child two years ago. When I returned to work after my maternity leave, I could not focus in the office or do anything much with my little one at home. My mind was always “cloudy” and tired. Needless to say, reading God’s words was not on my agenda. I thought it was natural after giving birth for mothers whose sleep was interrupted once or twice almost every night to feel this way.

Even though I love my daughter, I did not experience the joy that I imagined a mother would feel from motherhood. 

I felt my life was falling apart – nothing felt right. Then a few of my friends who attended the Love the Lord course and experienced inner healing and deliverance prayer shared how much it had changed their lives – how their walks with God become different. I could see the joy and the freedom that they are experiencing. I decided to take the course too because I was desperate – I wanted to be healed.

I was born in Asia and moved to the U.S. when I was 11 years old with my parents and my sister. From the outside, we were a happy middle-class family living a normal life. But looking within, we were very broken.

It seemed as if my parents and I were very close but in fact, there was an unspoken boundary between us. 

Before moving to the US, my mom rarely had dinner with us – perhaps three or four times a month. On the other hand, my dad would return home past eight o’clock every night as he would hang out with his friends or go drinking before coming home.

My sister and I would either wait for dad to have dinner together or we would just eat by ourselves after our part-time caretaker had left. My dad would spend a lot of time with us on the weekends though. My dad and I talked a lot.

From time to time, my dad would burst into sudden anger right in the middle of our conversation, out of nowhere.

I recall an incident way back when I was four years old.  I drew circles in my homework handbook. When my dad saw me drawing, he got very mad and yelled at me, saying I was crazy and stupid to draw on my handbook. I think it would be normal for a four-year-old to draw everywhere but til this day, I feel I am walking around eggshells when talking to my dad.

I need to be safe and not “anger” him.

After finishing the Love the Lord course, I signed up for an inner healing and deliverance prayer where I had to fill in a form and answer some follow-up questions. One of the follow-up questions asked me whether I know about the Holy Spirit. I was surprised because I thought I knew – Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.

I considered myself a Christian for 28 years but unbeknownst to me, I neither knew the Holy Spirit or could tell the Holy Spirit from spirits from Satan.

As my prayer counselors went through the form with me, I began to repent of my hatred towards my in-laws.

My mother-in-law is full of bitterness and jealousy, and suffers from psychosis. My father-in-law is a traditional Chinese man who demands everyone to respect him and follow him. They would tell me that my family is too poor for them, and that I am too old to give birth to a normal child. Their insults had seared through my heart.

I confessed that I wondered why God would allow these horrible people to live. 

Because I didn’t read the Bible, I didn’t realise this was not God’s nature. He does not want anyone to perish, but I wished them dead.

2 Peter 3:9 NIV The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

Through the inner healing and deliverance prayer, I also discovered that one of my inner vows was “I shall not lose control of my emotions in front of my child.” Thinking back, I now understand why. I did not want to be like my dad and lose my temper before my little one. I did not want to be like my parents. That was my other inner vow and judgment of them.

As we moved along in the prayer session, my head started to hurt and I felt very sleepy.  This had also happened every time I attended the Love the Lord classes. Moreover, once we came upon the section on Communication with the Dead, I could not speak.

A mute spirit prevented me from repentance. 

I was exposed to witchcraft very early. When I was about five or six years old, my grandmother showed me how to put black magic curses on other people (打小人) and I started to curse people I didn’t like when I was small.

In primary school, I “played” ouija board during a school camp with my school friends and even called up the name of a man – a dead man that I’ve never met or knew.

My prayer counsellors pointed out that this was likely to be how Satan deceived me into inviting the devil into my life.

When my prayer counselors prayed on myself behalf to repent, I started to scream unceasingly.  My counselors continued to pray and to demand Satan to leave me.  My mind was conscious but the screaming continued. Physically, I felt extremely hot like something was coming out of my body. I also threw up.

My counselors baptised me with water on the spot.

After the water baptism, I had a tingling feeling in my body.  While writing this testimony, an image came through my mind that I submerged through the water symbolizing that I am set free.

While we were praying, I also saw the image of my paternal grandfather who passed away 35 years ago. He was asking me not to cut off ties with him. I cried and did not want to stop thinking about his death.

One of my spiritual gifts is mercy. Satan was using my gift as a way to attack me by disguising himself as my grandfather, so I could be continuously yoked with the unclean spirits. This also explained why I liked to indulge myself with the feeling of being morbid – thinking of death and enjoyed reading news about death.

At the end of the inner healing and deliverance prayer, I saw an image of Jesus next to a river with children.  Jesus welcomed me with His open arms and gave me a BIG hug.

I felt I am no longer a slave to my anger, my in-laws; own trauma, as well as to Satan’s lies.

Before my inner healing and deliverance prayer, I was not able to read the Bible. The words of God never made sense to me or got into my mind. Reading the Bible now is much easier, but I still have to be intentional. I know I am still battling, but this battle is so much easier than before because I know God has won. It is not how hard I try; it is how close I am to God.

While sharing my testimony with some friends, they reminded me I should not re-live the manifestations or indulge in the uncomfortable feelings I felt during the deliverance during inner healing and deliverance prayer – this would just give way to glorifying the enemy. Instead, I should focus on what God has done for me – to set me free.

Even though I am still having anxious thoughts after my inner healing and deliverance prayer, I know that God’s grace is sufficient to walk me through it. It is a battle of the mind and I am more intentional to not let Satan has a foothold at the door.

I find that I finally have a relationship with the Holy Spirit and can hear His voice.

Recently, a colleague shared about the office politics of her team. I used to like to dig more into it and it would become a gossip session. But this time, somehow the Holy Spirit prompted me to stop myself from gossiping and showed me that office politics drained our minds and energy. I was able to share the prompting of the Holy Spirit and sought God’s wisdom in the conversation.

There is joy in my life when I follow and listen to God.