Jesus frees nurse from hidden strongholds

V had felt emotionally stifled and anxious about her friendships, until she sought the counsel of the Holy Spirit during a time of prayer. God showed her the things in her heart that caused her to feel stuck, one of which was her unawareness of her personal quality of kindness that God had given her to care for others. During that time, she recommitted her heart to Jesus and saw a vision of Him welcoming her to come to Him without shame or fear. Praise God!

(See Chinese versions: 简体中文 > 耶稣帮助护士从隐蔽的壁垒释放出来 | 繁體中文 > 耶穌幫助護士從隱蔽的壁壘釋放出來)

I’m a person who cares about relationships a lot.

Sometimes, I subconsciously put friendship or a romantic relationship higher than God. I struggled a lot because of jealousy, comparison, or my emotional immaturity. I wanted to get over it, but never knew how. It cost me energy, peace and joy.

I recall feeling sad growing up when close friends ignored or left me out. Friends mean a lot to me, because I have no brothers or sisters and my mother doesn’t understand me. So friends have been my source of help and support. But I often felt disappointed with friends.

I had been a Christian for several years before I finished the one-year Love the Lord course and decided to go through the inner healing and deliverance prayer at the end. During the prayer, I repented of a lot of occult practices in my family. That took a lot of time because the list was long, but Jesus also gently healed my heart.

I spent time confessing and repenting to God that I put some of my human relationships higher than the relationship with Him.

My prayer counsellors comforted me, and said that friends cannot take Jesus’ place in our hearts but we can come to draw from Jesus’ well.

John 4:14  but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” (NIV)

When we try to draw love and support from others, we may put ourselves in a place of disappointment. I repented of jealousy when they were having a good time amongst themselves and I cannot celebrate their happiness. I asked God to please transform my heart, “Help me to come to You naturally. Help me to realise no humans can save me, fulfil me, or help me.”

After repenting, my spirit felt lighter and a bit relieved.

God also revealed inner vows that I’ve spoken to myself which I was never aware of. There were 34 of them! For example, I vowed that “I’ll never reconcile with my dad,” “I refuse to recognise him as my dad,” “I’ll rely on myself and show others that I’m smart,” “I will be strong for myself,” and “I will not let others see my sadness and unhappiness.” It was a huge relief after spending time renouncing them in Jesus’ name.

I prayed, “In the name of Jesus, I confess that I made myself my own god to protect myself. I have confessed all the things in my heart. I now renounce all these ways of thinking. I crucify them on the cross. Jesus, I ask You to make them nothing, to renew the thoughts of my heart, to give me Your ways of thinking, and to soften my heart so I can listen to You.” I felt lighter and filled with joy after that!

Those praying for me prophesied that “I’m kind, God created me to be compassionate.” This changed my view towards people drastically.

I used to find it hard to believe when people said that I’m kind because I know I judged people a lot. After finding out that it is because I’m kind that I would judge unkind people, I began to understand myself and my gift of compassion, mercy, and kindness. I don’t understand why people are mean because my nature is kind.

Micah 6:8 He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. (NIV)

I’m now learning to ask God to teach me how to be kind, how to use my gift in a godly way.

I feel so reassured after learning that. I have become firmer with my identity and my personality, which gives me strength when facing Satan’s lies. It’s because of this deep spiritual cleansing that I can be more steady in Jesus. I now know how to differentiate between how Satan steals and how God blesses.

Towards the end of the inner healing and deliverance prayer, I saw Jesus standing before me, saying in an extra caring tone that I can come to Him any time I want. I don’t have to be afraid or ashamed.

I’m free to go to Jesus and He’ll accept me as I am.

Thank you Jesus for this great acceptance. Thank you Jesus for leading me, for revealing so many things I didn’t realise and had an influence, and setting me free so I can freely run to You. You will give me anything I need that is suitable for me; Your encouragement and kind words, Your love, care. I come before You, give You all my praise, with a humble heart to ask You what Your thoughts of me, encouragement, advice on how I should live everyday.