Jesus frees teacher from mental bondage

R was trapped into believing that there was something wrong with her. Here is her testimony of identifying the lies she had believed and being lovingly freed from bondage to a schizoaffective disorder by Jesus into His joy. Praise God!

(See Chinese versions: 简体中文 > 耶稣使一个老师从精神捆绑中得自由 | 繁體中文 > 耶穌使一個老師從精神捆綁中得自由)

Satan had planted a lie in my mind that I wasn’t as good or normal as others.

Growing up as an only child, I was very close with my parents. I always listened to them and followed their rules, believing them to be right. Hence, I developed a need to always be right and not make mistakes. My pride grew.

I felt the need to prove myself throughout school. At the same time, I didn’t think I deserved all the good things that God blessed me with. I came to believe that I was not worthy to receive love and that nobody understood me.

I had a hard time asking for help and forgiving myself for making mistakes.

I kept my weaknesses to myself and became judgmental towards others. Over time, I developed deep anxiety and depression, but did not know how to seek help. It was at this point that I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, with prayers from family and friends. However, my depression didn’t go away. When I started working full-time as a teacher, I couldn’t handle my stress and perfectionism.

I began hallucinating that people were attacking and ridiculing me. Satan tried to manipulate the gift of imagination that God blessed me with to destroy me.

On the day of my baptism, I was admitted to the psychiatrist hospital for a psychotic episode instead.

When I went for an inner healing and deliverance prayer, God revealed to me all of the inner lies I had come to believe. Jesus already died to paid the price for my sins with His blood and He will give me new life in my mind, heart and soul when I invite Him to.

I repented for taking part in the occult, like Halloween, birthdate reading and ancestral worship. I also renounced all evil thoughts I had developed from watching a horror movie that I grew attached to. I was too young to understand the character’s psychological disorders and it made me extremely confused. Subconsciously, I began to think about what it’s like to have a mental illness. This, I believe, was one spiritual root for my hallucinations. During my prayer, I crucified all ungodliness to the Cross of Jesus Christ and repented for my unbelief.

With the help of my prayer counselors, I cast away the sprits of anxiety, depression, and poverty.

At first, I had difficulty breathing when casting out the evil spirits but I put on the full armor of God against all evil spirits and was freed. My inner healing and deliverance prayer also gave me faith and encouragement as we prayed for the complete healing of my medical condition.

Additionally, I forgave and blessed those whom I thought had “wronged” me. I also forgave myself for being mean towards others during my adolescence.

At the end of the prayer session, a realisation came to me; “There’s nothing wrong with me.”

My prayer counselors asked me to clarify what I meant. I realised that I had always believed an inner lie; that there was something abnormal about me that I needed to fix. But God created me the way I am, and He made no mistake. I declared my true identity in Christ and the lie was broken. My prayer counselors then asked me if I could see myself in the throne room of Jesus Christ.

Yes, I saw Jesus smiling as He stood up to embrace me. I knew I was His beloved child.

Christ lives in me. His love overflows and is never ending.  A prayer counselor saw a new name in me – Joy.  God is faithful and keeps His promises. Although old habits tempt me and anxious thoughts come to my mind, I take all thoughts captive to make them obedient to Christ. The joy of the Lord is my strength and He is my song forever.

Here, I share some passages from Scripture that have encouraged me as I reflected on my inner healing and deliverance prayer.

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 3:13-14

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ ~Ephesians 1:3

 “Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.” ~Jeremiah 33:3

He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water. ~John 7:38

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. ~2 Corinthians 5:17

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. ~Romans 8:18

For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. ~Romans 8:38-39