Jesus heals artist from unrest and gives her rest
A felt extremely burdened and weary all her life and sought healing on many occasions, until the Holy Spirit interrupted her schedule and led a stranger to pray for her to lay all her burdens down. Thankfully A was willing to humble herself to receive the Holy Spirit’s counsel. The Lord told her she had been a good daughter for obeying and filled her heart with Father God’s love. Praise God!
(简体中文 > 耶稣医治艺术家的不安并让她得到安息 | 繁體中文 > 耶穌醫治藝術家的不安並讓她得到安息)
Coming from an Asian heritage, I was born into a very large extended family. In total, I have 24 uncles and aunties.
My parent’s marriage was arranged and they had seven very difficult years together before they separated. After their divorce, I moved a total of 45 times in six decades. It was hard to experience peace and feel settled.
I changed seven jobs in 11 years. After I became a believer in Jesus, I served in 18 ministries within 14 years. Two of them, I served for 17 years.
The constant striving to prove my worth was oppressive.
I needed to rest but did not know how. This led to four seasons of total burnout. Seven times, I landed in the hospital for different surgeries.
Earlier this year, I attended a prophetic conference. In spite of a jam packed week, the Holy Spirit led someone to pray for me during the conference. The Lord cut into my busyness and brought me into an intensive spiritual warfare prayer that was fought on my behalf. I was blessed that my faithful roommate witnessed it all and captured this spiritual warfare in writing by taking notes on what happened.
The impromptu prayer came about because the person who prayed for me, a total stranger, saw a vision of a big golden temple urn with many incense sticks burning as well as a little girl crouched over and crying. I told her my family worshipped a lot of idols and that I remembered hiding under the dining table as my parents fought.
There has been a lot of trauma in my life that I had been seeking healing for.
As we prayed to renounce many aspects of my family’s idol worship, the Holy Spirit also helped me to renounce many lies the enemy had planted in my heart, including the lie that “I have a very 慘 (tragic and sorrowful) life.” Repeatedly agreeing with this statement gave the enemy a legal right to steal, kill, and destroy my life.
This “慘” spirit was responsible for an oppressive sadness that has passed down my family line for generations. For me, this sadness ranged from feeling being discriminated against as a woman in a patriarchal family and to feeling all alone to fend off attacks from the family. The layers of unrest were basically attacks from the enemy, from my parents’ fighting and divorce to subsequent sibling rivalry and complex household relationships.
These were just some of the effects of generational curses from worshiping idols.
During the prayer session, I learnt to pray for my step sisters as I repented for any hidden bitterness towards them.
For the past two years, I attended a recovery programme where I dug deep into my soul for the healing of my heart. As a result, I had written a long list of people to forgive, including several ministries, totalling over 100. That day, I decided that I would forgive them all.
As we prayed, I felt lighter and lighter as different spirits left my body through my hands, my head and my abdomen.
My headache also went away. Many strongholds were taken down. My roommate told me that my face looked brighter, as the light of Jesus Christ now shone through me.
The final affirmation from Father God was that I have been very “乖” (dutiful, obedient) daughter. This was something I had been longing to hear from my family all my life! The Holy Spirit knew what my heart needed to hear. God’s appreciation quelled the frenzy inside me to prove myself and to be approved. This reassurance immediately set my heart free to receive a breath of relief.
Being appreciated by God removes the bitterness from being forgotten by people!
I was asked to breathe in deeply to welcome God’s new life into my body. As I took in this breath of God’s love, my body muscles were finally willing to let go of the indescribable and unfathomable grief I have carried all my life, from even from before I was born. I was able to relax as the tension eased away.
The prayer took one and a half hours but the Holy Spirit covered so much of my life journey!
I returned home after completing the week-long conference in a very restful environment. Yet after coming back to a busy life, even weeks and months later, I find I have the internal capacity to be free to make breakthrough decisions regarding my family and friends.
I now have the power to make choices freely. A load of burdens has been laid down.
Recently, I attended a week-long course on the Father’s Heart. For the first time, I can remember Father God’s love for me from long ago. I no longer push Him away or run away from God’s unrelenting love. I am able to engage in Father God’s embrace. I no longer resist His hug for my heart’s much needed rest.
Physically, I have also noticed that the knots in my muscles have loosened. I can care for my body so much more easily and feel I am gentler in spirit. I am a lot slower to anger. When there is a trigger to react, I can breathe in His love for me and for my family, church, community and the world.
Thank you, Lord, for having the Body of Christ to minister to our lives and make a difference.