Jesus sets architect free from lies

V grew up in a family where she felt the burden of living up to her father’s standards, which affected her emotional and physical well-being. As she sought God through prayer and counselling, she was able to see the lies that kept her in bondage and experienced freedom by releasing her burdens to God. Praise God! 

(See Chinese versions: 简体中文 > 耶稣令建筑师从谎言中得释放 | 繁體中文 > 耶穌令建築師從謊言中得釋放)

Since I was young, I had allergies that caused my skin to have rashes and hives.

Taking antibiotics and applying inflammatory ointment to reduce the rashes and itchiness to my skin became a regular practice throughout my childhood life. To reduce the swelling and rashes, I had dietary restrictions.

Before taking the Love the Lord course, I had believed that my allergies were inherited from my family since my grandfather and my mother had the same illness. After the course, I realised it was not simply generational and that my allergies can be healed by the Lord.

I was comforted and surprised this was a lie that I have kept for so many years and now, I have a chance to be free from it!

During my prayer session, I revoked the lie that my allergy is generational and acknowledged and declared in Jesus’s name that my allergy can be healed. I will be fully healed by the Lord at His will and timing.

I felt enlightened and refreshed after realising I can be healed and rashes on my skin and itchiness can be gone forever! I repented from playing God in dictating when, where and how healing will happen to me, which made me disappointed and frustrated over and over again when I saw my allergic reaction re-occur. I was given great reassurance when I declared God as my healer and learnt to place my faith in God wholeheartedly.

Looking back, the process of recalling my past and preparing for my inner healing and deliverance prayer triggered episodes of allergic reactions.

I admit they were hard to bear and in times I was doubtful if the Lord heard my prayers and saw my suffering.

“Suddenly, a leper walked up to Jesus and threw himself down before him in worship and said, “Lord, you have the power to heal me . . . if you really want to.” Jesus reached out his hand and touched the leper and said, “Of course I want to heal you—be healed!” And instantly, all signs of leprosy disappeared!” Matthew 8:2-3 TPT

This passage was shared during my prayer session. It reminded me that the Lord had the power to heal the leper, and He will also have the power to heal me and He wants to heal me too!

“Of course, I want to heal you – be healed.”

While listening to those words, I felt He understands my suffering and wants to heal me. Before I was too focused on my itchiness and frustrations, while the Lord was there all along with me. My focus was wrong.

Now from time to time, allergic reaction will come along and rashes would appear on my body. Itchiness can be annoying and difficult to ignore. However, since my prayer session, when an allergic reaction comes, I will pray to ask the Holy Spirit for protection and to remind me that I will be healed.

I now refuse to enter the spiralling thoughts and giving in to the fact that I would be this way forever.    

Another big revelation the Lord revealed to me during the prayer session was about my stress and frustration with my earthly father, which caused an impact on my relationship with my Heavenly Father.

Reflecting back on my childhood life, I had very devoted parents who taught and took care of me in the best way they could.

“Proper” was very important to my parents, especially to my father.

I had to behave and speak properly. If not, my father would think I misbehaved. At first, I did not know this affected me deep down in my soul and caused a mental block in how I communicated with my Heavenly Father.

At the beginning of the prayer, it was challenging for me to express my feelings in words. I used many reasonings to explain my thoughts yet true feelings weren’t comprehended. Thankfully, the Holy Spirit guided me to understand that my emotions were suppressed to an extent that I was very cautious about what I said to the Lord – similar to the way I spoke to my earthly father. Gradually, I released my emotional baggage and asked the Lord to help me discover my feelings.

For the first time, I was able to freely express how I felt about my earthly father.

I cried out to the Lord about my disappointments and anger when my father put me in situations I could not bear. I saw the stress and brokenness my father was placed on his family. I was placed in many situations where I was expected to help in family matters, yet I failed to. I expressed my frustration as I know my dad loves me yet he feels so distant to me.

In prayer, I asked the Holy Spirit to help and lift up all my stress and burden to God. I learnt I should not have to bear all this responsibilities on my shoulders. I declared that only God can heal my father and his family. I felt lighter after surrendering all my burdens and releasing my emotions to the Lord.

With my emotions released, I saw I needed to forgive my father and myself.

I confessed and forgave myself, and lifted up the responsibility of taking care of my family and the relationships between them to the Lord. I felt so relieved to release my stress that was buried deep in my heart and felt hopeful that my loved ones are under God’s control.

Once again with an open heart, I felt so loved and joyful to speak blessings over those who have hurt me. With no agenda and being afraid of expressing my feelings to the Lord, I felt excited to start building an intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father!